I'm going to end it by Halloween
By - Sidprescott96
This is gonna sound dumb but plz check out disability Twitter it has helped me a lot . I am also on disability and constantly contemplate suicide. It’s been a useful resource for me. Not gonna tell you not to do it cause you’ve heard it too many times, but I’m sending you love .
I have friends with disabilities and work with the disabled community as well. Once you turn 18 things will change!!!! It sounds like your mother is a huge part of the problem- she can’t or won’t let you go and grow up :( Please please please get some help. Call 911 and tell them you’re going to kill your self- this might get you hospitalized and/or connected with some social workers/ community services that can help.
Perhaps a service dog would be good for you? You didn’t say what country you are in, but most places have services like Rehabilitation commissions or something similar to help people with even severe disabilities find work (if they want to work.)
Check out the Youtuber Squirmy and Grubs. The guy is in a wheelchair and can only really move his hand and head. He lives an incredibly rich life. I hope things become better for you.
I know you've heard this, but please don't.
If you can't think of a reason, just give it another year. Give it one more year, and reach out to a therapist. You don't even have to drive - do it remotely.
Worst case, nothing changes, and you won't be any worse off than you are right now. But if something changes, you will be better off; it sounds like it literally can't get worse.
Please try a remote therapy session. If you give it a year, the absolute worst that can happen is that you'll still be where you are now.
But talk to a therapist. Please. You don't know for sure that there is no way out, and a therapist will help you to find someone.
I won’t pretend that I can relate to your struggles, and at the same time, I’ve contemplated suicide at dark moments in my life…and one of the things that kept me going is that death will ultimately win in the end, so why not experience all the good, joy, pleasure that I can while I’m living.
It seems bleak right not, and at the same time, there *is* hope! Please consider therapy.
Don’t do it man. You have so much to live for
Obviously I haven’t had anywhere near the struggles that you’ve had being disabled, but by the looks of it, you don’t seem to be participating in society. Our society is very much so adapted to limited mobility persons[activities](https://scootaround.com/en/10-awesome-activities-for-wheelchair-users), like, chrystler and Ford offer cars that cater very much to the disabled so I would look into that. There’s always friends and love, you just have to put yourself out there. Do u have one of those motorized scooters? Bruh like there’s so much shit you can do in the world and not have to be 100% able-bodied for. Like most well paying jobs are sit down, anyways, so you can make good money and be a productive member in society without needing the ability to walk. Life is what you make of it. You can tell yourself and sit your ass at home and expect shit to happen, which it won’t, or you can wake the fuck up and realize that if you don’t step up and try to actively improve your life, your obviously not gonna have anything to live for. Anyways, don’t do it. Like I get your hopeless and you genuinely feel like your are at rock bottom, but let me assure you that there’s always people out there who will help you out and there are people who literally live to save people such as you. If you kill yourself, you’re wasting your life. You were put here for a reason and it’s your obligation to carve your own path in society and serve as an inspiration to others. You got it bro. Don’t kill yourself. That would be such a shame to waste a beautiful life with so much potential.
I’m also on disability and what has gotten me through my hard times was my faith, you should research the Catholic Church, there’s heaps of free resources online. The church and the community it brings can get you through this and you can offer up your suffering.
Whatever we endure we can offer on behalf of others, just as Jesus offered the pain of the cross. You can dm me if you wanna learn more but there is a better path the ending it
You may be in "peace" if you end it, but one thing you'll always regret is not trying, every day is a new day! Life experiences are important for one to grow, change, improve, mature, whatever you're going through right now, maybe you need it.
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift, that is why it's called present."